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Thursday, September 25, 2008

Oh, Honey...

I hear this all the time from him. He says, "Oh, honey" when I am driving him nuts, "Oh, honey" when he is laughing at me, "Oh, honey" when I am upset, and "Oh, honey" when he is upset. It makes me laugh. It is his catch phrase, and I love it. I don't think I have ever had a boyfriend who calls me honey, and when he did the first time it took everything I had not to laugh at him. I love it now though--even when he says it out of pure frustration or exasperation! Oh, honey!

(He is actually blowing me a kiss in this picture.)

Monday, September 22, 2008

My Hero...

This is so obviously tongue in cheek, but really, Nick is my defender. After a horrible work day on Friday where I was called some unpleasant names by a student, I called him to tell him about it. He was angrier than me, and said all the right things and made me feel all the right things. He has always been great when it comes to this. He is my protector and my safe zone. He comforts me and makes me feel as if the world will be okay. Thank goodness I have him.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Good times

Well, they are! I only hope and pray that they stay that way. There is a lot coming up and a lot to think about in the next few months, but for now, at least, we are happy and content. I am mostly okay with still being in Colorado, but it will not be long before I will need to start thinking about the road ahead. I do feel as if I am living in some kind of limbo land. Only here, I am actually being productive and getting things done and learning--which is the most important thing. I look back at the things I wrote before, and I am sometimes grateful for the experience I have had to remember that I am a strong person and that I can handle things. I am sorry to those of you who had to worry about me. I hate to have people worried about me, but it is good to know that I am so loved.

I seriously thought about deleting this blog, but I am now thinking that it will be a way for me to really document this year of change, this year of growth, this year of happiness. Okay, I am being cheesy and no, Holly, I am not always happy. I am, however, working on it. I am better and better every week. I am glad that Nick is still a part of my life despite the utter hell I lived through over the summer. Things are different between us, but they are not a bad different. We are more open with each other. We have become better friends. We learned to fight, and we learned to forgive, to forget, and to move on. This is a lesson many of us could use!

The picture is one of my new favorites of us. I know that my family members are all rolling their eyes right now, but it is okay! This is the only way I get to look at him for now. :-)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Where we are now

Together and happy, I think. I am unsure these days again, but it is me this time. I am scared and unsure about things at the moment, and I am unsure how to deal with that. In my head I am blaming him for my insecurities and questions, but I honestly have no one to blame but myself. I am going crazy right now. I want things to be clear. I want to be in a place where we can move forward. It is coming and I know that. I think I will feel better then.