Oh Goodness!

Well, we did just get engaged, and on Friday we are getting married. Yes, it is sudden. Yes, it is fast. Yes, I am ready. Yes, I am excited! I actually cannot wait to be Mrs. Sadler, and I am kind of relieved that this has worked out the way it has. I feel at peace with it all for a lot of reasons, and I can only hope that we will make it through this next month of packing and cleaning and moving.

Nick has been looking at houses for us. He is such a rockstar! I am pretty impressed with him and his willingness to find us a place to rent. He spent the day yesterday looking with our fabulous leasing agent, Becky, and they are going to check out two more places today before making a decision.

There is what looks like a great house on the realty website we have been looking at, and I am crossing my fingers that this place will be as great in real life as it looks online. Then I am praying that we will be able to get it! In the long run, what really matters is that we have a house to make a home and that Nick is the one who lives in it with me.

Is it May 25th yet?

Engaged!

So it is official! Nick and I got engaged on March 20, 2009. It was spring break and I was there with him. It was the first day of spring break, and I was thrilled just to be there with him for an entire ten days. He took me to dinner and arranged with the restaurant for us to have a table set up with candles and a picture of us and a custom made Broncos jersey with Sadler on the back hanging up. He was so cute! When he got down on one knee, I immediately started to cry and had to shake my head yes because I couldn't talk very well. So, we are getting married in CO on Januray 23, 2010. I am moving on May 25, 2009. I am so excited and nervous and stressed out--but in a good way!

Here is a picture of us right after he proposed.

The Convo...

Last night Nick had the conversation with my parents asking them for permission for my hand. Okay, that is totally not what he said, but it is the main concept behind what he did. I think that things went well. I know that he was super nervous and all parties involved would have prefered that this was done in person. However, this was/is the way it happened, and I really don't see anything wrong with that.

So, now on to the proposal. Sometime. Soon. I think.

Asking for their blessing

So, this is really happening. Nick is getting ready to ask for my parent's blessing to marry me. Holy crap! Seriously?! Since he can't do it in person, he made a photo book and had it shipped to their house. The book does not ask them for permission, but it does briefly tell the story of us and talks about how wonderful he thinks I am. It is cute--yeah, I have seen a copy of it because he created it online. We both thought that it would get there sometime next week, but nope! It will arrive tomorrow. TOMORROW! I think that means that Nick will attempt to talk with my parents this weekend. Oh goodness!

I am feeling a little giddy and all over the place. Wow! Even though this is all happening, I can hardly believe that this is all happening. Yeah! I just pray that it all works out like we want it to. I am ready to get this show on the road. :)

What now?!

I am so very ready for it to be Spring Break. This month has DRAAAGGGGGED on and on! We are going to spend ten days together. He will have to work part of the time, so I will sleep in everyday and go pick him up at noon. It will be nice, and I am excited to be able to spend so much time with him. I hope that we will be able to plan some things and look at some neighborhoods we would like to move in to. I am anxious to plan, plan, plan! Planning is always my favorite part--I like to plan and then delegate and supervise. I am generally pretty good at it. I work hard to make sure my plans come to fruition though. I have a harder time delegating things when I know that I can just do it myself than I let on. Perhaps this is why I am flipping out about my kid's research papers. Or maybe I just want them to be responsible and do their work. I don't know! Maybe I push them too hard--ha! Not likely...

The Hunt

So, here I am again--hunting for a job in Texas. I passed test #3, and I have one more to go. I will take this in April. Then the testing process will be done, and the waiting for my official license will begin. As long as I have it by the start of school, I think I will be okay. I just hope that there is a school willing to hire me without the official license. I am starting to get nervous.

I am also playing impatient. I am really ready to go to Texas. I feel as if things here are not really so wonderful right now. My life is not here--it is hundreds of miles away from where I physically live. I am stressed out at work, and my personal life (other than with Nick) makes no sense right now. This is making it very easy for me to want to leave. Today there is nothing holding me here.

I am looking forward to Spring Break. I will spend all ten days in Texas. I will need all ten days in Texas to decompress. My body tenses and tenses and tenses until I am ready to explode, and when we are together, I relax. I wish it wasn't so obvious that I need him so much. I am amazed that I am at that point.

We spent a really great weekend in Las Vegas. Kristie got married there, and we went to be a part of that with her. This picture is of us there. :)

The Future

Is it bleak or filled with possibilities? This is something that I have questioned over and over again! As we talk about how we are going to manage moving and life and all the money issues and things we find ourselves faced with, I begin to panic a little. I was too young to really be affected my a bad economy before, and I am amazed at how it really does affect every aspect of my life. I worry about every cent. I am worried about traveling to a wedding in Las Vegas. I am worried about Nick spending money on my ring right now. I am worried that getting married is going to be something that is just too expensive for us to do right now and maybe we should wait until things are better. Everything I do--driving, going to lunch, the store, the gym--makes me question whether or not I should really be doing it. Will it take too much gas? Can I make it to the end of the month? Can I save any money right now? When will this all end?

For the first time yesterday I panicked a little at the mention of people possibly losing their jobs at the plant. This doesn't hurt my job, but it could hurt Nick's. Although I am almost sure that his job is relatively safe, I still worry. What would we do? I hate that things are so uncertain in the world right now that the job that was thriving even six months ago is hurting so much right now. I am also amazed that his livlihood--while not something I physically depend on--is something that I depend on. I only hope that he feels the same way.