Thanks Heavens for Little Girls!

I'M GOING TO HAVE A NEICE!!! Congratulations to Stef and Matt! They are going to have a beautiful baby girl! Can't wait to be an aunt!

We Are All Allowed a Little Bit of Crazy...

This is my confession of the crazy things that have been floating through my head for the past few days. I am totally blaming this on turning 30 soon, but I really could just be crazy!

1. Do I really want to have babies?
Gasp if you must and run to grab the thermometor to make sure I am feeling okay, but that is actually something that has been running through my head. Why? Well, I like our life. I like being home and hanging out with Nick and not having to worry about anyone else. I like sleeping through the night. I like being able to pick up and run out the door at a moments notice. Besides, this world is a crazy, scary place where there are crazy scary things. I'm worried enough about me handling it! How can I expect to prepare my own children?

2. If I can guarantee that we have girls...
I might reconsider. However, I have a theory about how sons steal a mother's heart and her sanity and then spend all of their adult life stomping on her heart strings. I am terrified to have sons. I don't know what I would do with them or how to handle them or if I would even like them. Sigh! Not a pleasant way to spend a lifetime.

3. If I get this job and go back to work...
We will just have to push having kids off more anyway. As soon as I begin working, I will need to stay working for a long time. Longer than I originally thought. School loans and cc debt and wanting to buy a house and establish some roots are all pressing on my mind. BIG TIME! Not to mention that I am watching my husband melt under the stress of making his budget for next year which determines our income. I can't let him stress like that anymore. I need to contribute to us more.

4. Really, I am getting too old for this...
I know. Thirty! So what? Right? Nope. I'm scared to have kids in my 30's. What if something is wrong with them or me? We already tried this once and it didn't keep. If that happens again, I can't promise that I wouldn't want to give up.

5. I'm afraid to do this alone and so far away from my family. I don't think I am strong enough for that.

I Hate Waiting...

My interview went well. And now we wait!

I hate waiting. I hope we will know next week.

Interview...Frustration...Life

Random title for a post, I know, but I am updating on a few things, so here it goes.

That is right! I finally have an interview. You know, part of what has been so hard about moving here was giving up my job. No one ever thought that I would move to Texas and have SUCH a hard time finding one, but it has been a nightmare. I applied to probably 15 school districts and approximately 100 different specific jobs without any calls for an interview. And now, here we are, the middle of the school year and I have an interview for a HS Eng position. CRAZY! I tried to play it smart tonight and went to go find this school. It is quite the drive away, and I wanted to be 100% sure that I would be able to find it in the morning. So, I got directions and headed out. It is a good thing that I did too! If I had made the attempt to drive out there in the morning without any knowledge of where I was headed, I would have had a mental breakdown. Oh, wait! I did have a mental breakdown. You know, people keep telling me that the highways and biways in Texas are great and make so much sense! They are lying through their teeth and probably laughing at me as I flounder around. I don't get lost easy. I can navigate pretty well around places, but this place has me all twisted up and confused. Don't ask Nick about it though. All he says is, "It's so easy, Jen." LIAR! However, I found the school, so I hope that I will be able to make it with no problem tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the Christmas Party that Nick and I are in charge of organizing. This is the first time we have ever had to do this, and there are a MILLION things I would do differently next year. However, we will survive this one, I think. I hope. I went and started to set up the tables and such, and I am going to spend the better part of my day there tomorrow as well. In fact, I bet that if I was smart, I would go shop for the remaining items that we need right now. I'm tired and really not that smart though. Dang it! I guess I am headed to the store! I'll take pictures and share them with everyone. I hope it is an event to rememeber.

My Crazy Little Girl

My darling, dog, Joey is amazing! I named her Joey simply because she is an Australian Kelpie Mix which reminded me of kangaroos and baby kangaroos are joeys. Anyway, this named proved to be fitting in more ways than one because she can jump like a kangaroo. She isn't a big dog. She is very athletic, and demonstrates this by running and jumping like crazy! She is also an escape artist.

Joey has never been one to enjoy being caged--seriously, who does? However, if there is a way out of somewhere and something...she finds it! We have another dog, Elway, who likes to get into things and desroy pillows and chairs when he is angry with Mom and Dad. In order to keep them contained, we bought a baby gate that confines them to the kitchen and the backyard via the doggie-door. Joey has decided that this arrangement is no longer to her liking, so she has started jumping the baby gate.

She stands in front of it, crouches down, jumps up like it is nothing, and CLEARS the gate with no problem. Lucky for us, her brother has never tried to jump up in his life, so he is stuck on the other side. I honestly don't mind that she jumps to the other side. I just hope we can teach her to jump back!

Here is Miss Joey probably two years ago. I will have to post some pictures of the babies now! She has changed so much, and Elway is a beast! I love them both, but she will always be my little girl. She is even sitting under me right now relaxing and hiding from her evil brother. Silly girl!

Decorating

We put up decorations yesterday! Here is a little glimpse at our cozy Christmas house!

The outside looks great thanks to Nick and his lighting skills!

This is a wreath that I made--notice the S in the middle. It stands for Sadler...yes, I am still amazed that this is my new last name.

Our stocking--from left to right--Jen, Nick, Elway and Joey.

Finally...OUR TREE! Our house just feels so cozy and happy! I love this time of year and all the happiness that comes with it. Enjoy the season and all the splendor that comes with it!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

Freaking Life

It is so amazing to me how we can be plodding along one minute trying to just have a little fun, and the next minute be stopped in our tracks by the most unexpected news. My brother-in-law, Eric, has been diagnosed with lymphoma. He's been sick forever, and this is what they have found out. Holly and Eric have been back and forth from the hospital for tests and biopsies, etc. It looks like he will begin treatment next week. We are praying lots and talking with everyone everyday. My body is in big sister mode, and I want to be there with them so bad! It isn't as if there is anything I can actually do except take care of people. It's all I am really good at anyway.

Missing them! Missing home! Can't wait to see everyone, and I hope to see them all soon.